Mixed Blessings

Well I have had an extremely emotional week...actually the last couple of weeks have been highly draining, with Veronica being in the hospital and then the other things that happened. One of them being that my Dad was diagnosed with Stage 1 Parkinson's disease. It was suspected for a while but not confirmed until he went to a specialist. He is telling our church this weekend. The blessing is that it is only in the first stage.... Also a good pastor friend of ours was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. The blessing there is that they went in for something else and if he hadn't had that other problem, they wouldn't of found it. So it's a blessing that they might of caught it in time. The last thing that happened was that I found out something that I thought was true for 3 years was a lie from a person close to me. And they are still denying lieing about it which makes it hard to get past it. In that case I can only pray they will tell the truth.
One very big emotional blessing I have had this week was seeing my niece Brittany. Not only did I see her, after 2 long years, but she stayed with me, which is a miracle in itself because of an issue we had before she even ran away from home. She's living back in the town her parents live in, but unfortuneately it's with that guy and his family. The good thing is, I was able to give her an unbiased view on things I saw, and she was actually receptive. We stayed up until 4am one night....which happened to be the first night Veronica slept through the night....I could of slept!!! Oh well, at least I got to speak into Brittany's life. She told me I gave her some things to think about, which I hope is good. I was also happy to find out she still believes in God and that Jesus is the Savior. She has some wacky beliefs now, but at least she knows that. Hopefully this week was an opening to her getting back on the right path.
Well that's it for now....I must admit that with the illnesses my Dad and Mom and friends are facing, I am having a low faith moment.....I know God CAN heal....I just don't know if He WILL heal....and I am having a hard time with it. I guess all I can do is pray.......

Bad nights

Well we had a couple of bad nights. On Monday Veronica was running a fever and the doctor wanted me to bring her to the er because it was over 102....so I did and they subjected her to all sorts of tests as precautions and it wasn't fun....but she is fine now, they said it was some kind of virus. They kept her overnight for two nights for 24-hour observation. Thankfully she is home and feeling good!!! She is even laughing and smiling!!! Other than that not much is going on. I had lost 4lbs but then gained it back, not sure what's up with that. I am going to keep trying though. My 10 year high school reunion is in August....I need to look good!!! Well other than that nothing exciting...please keep my parents in prayer they are both ill with things!!

Dieting

So it's that time again, time to actually watch what I eat and get myself back into shape. I had the excuse of being pregnant to eat like a pig and now I don't so I need to get my body back to snuff. I started the South Beach Diet...which I have done before and lost 20 something pounds. Hoping to do that again, after all, my ten year high school reunion is this year!! I also do the Firm workouts. They are easy to do at home without having to go to the gym. If I don't see results though I am going to have to go to the gym. But anyways, my main goal is to just be healthy. I want to have a healthy life style and have good food for when Veronica is old enough to eat. I don't want her to eat fried foods and processed junk all the time. So the best way to prevent that is to get in a good habit myself. It's hard but it will be worth it.
Well now that I know how to post pictures I will have to take some!!! A lot of people keep saying that the picture of Veronica below looks like me. I don't see it....maybe because she's my baby I can't see it like everyone else. I think she looks a lot like my husband.
Well not much else is going on here. Hope all are well!!!

Update

Edit: Here is a pic....courtesy of Heather.....of baby Veronica.


So I am pretty sure I will probably be ditching the blog soon. I think only Jackie reads it and MaryAnn once in a while, and I can just email you both!!! I guess I think it is pointless if other friends don't read it....some can't I know...but the only reason I started it was to keep in touch with out of town people without having to send emails to different people saying the same thing!!! Oh well.....
In other news, Veronica is doing well....she is already on cereal because she has a bit of an acid reflux problem and they want her to keep her food down better. It seems to be working.....last time she was weighed she was 10lbs 7oz......and that was over a week ago so I am sure that she is far more than that now. She has a lot of meat on her bones. I wish to goodness I knew how to put a pic on here...I will have to make Heather show me. I am having a hard time with the exhaustion and no sleep, but she is worth it. She can already hold her head up and she follows my and Tim's voices. She also seems to be seeing better, she follows objects and faces with her eyes. And she is starting to "talk," and smile and coo. I think the biggest thing for me is the lack of time to get things done. It is frustrating but again, she is worth it. It is just hard when you have commitments like Sunday School and cell group and you have to have the material covered or have your house clean. Oh well. I am sure I will get it down soon!!! No complaints here, everyone is healthy and happy and God's hand is ever upon us. I guess that's it for now!!!