Fluid, Lack of Sleep, and other Mundane Things

Well when people complained about having extra fluid or water weight in their bodies, I never quite understood why that was a problem, other than maybe being a little uncomfortable. Now I realize it is actually painful. I took my wedding rings off about two weeks ago. I should have done it sooner but I was reluctant to for obvious reasons. Now my hands and feet feel weird. I am thinking it must be similar to what arthritis feels like. I am not able to move my hands well, like opening and shutting, etc. And occasionally it hurts. But I will deal with it, after all it is only temporary right??
The thing I am having a hard time with is sleep. For some reason whenever I lay down I feel like I am going to pass out. It feels like no oxygen is getting to my head, or like someone has their hands around my neck. My mom thinks it is a blood pressure issue. I am going to talk to my doctor next week when I have an appointment, because it's getting pretty bad, and I can't sleep, therefore I can't really function as a normal human being!!!
Today I am going to decorate my tree. It's standing right now, crooked, because this house is insanely crooked. The cat is sitting under it right now. I swear if he even trys to destroy it this year.........I don't know but it won't be pretty!!!! We have an appointment for his shots and then they said after they see him we can finally get him neutered. Yea!!!!! So I am hoping that will cause him some distraction from the tree. My main concern is when the baby comes, and is trying to learn to crawl or anything like that. I am afraid he might see a moving target and run for it. We are hoping if we neuter him that will help. Unfortuneately everywhere I have turned to find him a home has not worked. I even contacted the Humane Society about 2 months ago and they supposedly put me on a list and I haven't heard back from them. At this point with how much we love him, because he has turned into a very sweet cat, we will only send him somewhere where we know they will take care of him. I have been seriously praying on the issue, which sounds funny, but I need all the help I can get!!!
Well off to start my day...........

Thankful

Things I am thankful for......the obvious.....my baby. My husband Tim. My family. My dog Roxy and my cat Vader. My house/heat/electric/food and clothing/a hot shower/a nice bed to sleep in. Two cars. The fact that everything I need for the baby is pretty much bought and paid for by other people who have blessed us immensly. Friends. Jobs that are keeping bills and other things taken care of. The fact that my husband brought me home tickets to Stars on Ice in Lake Placid on Saturday. A church family I love and who blesses us. And most importantly, my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.....who gave the ultimate gift by dieing for me. And if I was the only person on earth, He still would have done it. That's so much to be thankful for that I can't even fathom it.
In this season of give me, give me, give me, I want to remember all the things I have and all the things I am blessed with. When I think about how other people live in this world, and even in this country, I realize that what I have is a whole lot, and what I want is just icing on the cake. All those wants and desires are fine in measure, but I need to remember what I have. Cuz it's a whole lot.......Thank You Lord for all I have.......

Second Shower

So my second shower was Saturday. It was very nice, my two sister-in-laws, and step-mom-in-law threw it for me. I was very blessed between both of my showers. I pretty much have everything I need except for my stroller/car seat combo and my swing. But both of those items we think we are getting from other people. I actually found a crib too!!! And now I have a changing table/dresser combo that we plan on getting, care of my in-laws. Pretty much Tim and I won't have to buy much, it is such a blessing. Only two months to go. I can't believe it, it seems like a whirl-wind between all the time we were trying to get pregnant and now....two months from now I will be a mom. That blows my mind. I have to admit I am apprehensive. I don't know how anything is going to be and that freaks me out a little. But marriage freaked me out and I adjusted to that, and so I think this will be the same. I will get the hang of it!! It's just the thought that I will be responsible for this little one for the rest of my life. That's enough to freak anyone out!!! LOL!!! Everyone is weighing in on (no pun intended,) what I am having, a boy or a girl. I really am not sure one way or another. There's some things that make me think I am having a boy, and some things that make me think I am having a girl. I guess it will really be a surprise. I have no idea either way.
I am looking forward to Thursday, my brother and his family are coming. Usually we don't have a lot of holidays with him, so I am happy. They haven't seen me since August so I am sure they will be surprised by my belly. I have only gained 12 pounds so far, so I am doing really well. I am sure that number will increase over the next two months. Well I am tired....what else is new....hope all are well!!!

Rain

Now I understand why people get depressed in the winter.....it has been dark and gray for like a week, no sunshine. It really does a number on you to not feel that precious warmth and light rain down on you. It makes me think of when I get busy and don't have time for God. I feel so disconnected and worn. And then when I am in His presence and allowing Him to move in me and do what HE wants instead of what I want.....I feel that warmth and the flow of His Spirit all over again. And I wonder why I let my life get so busy that I didn't have time for Him, and I wonder how I lived without that light in my life. Just like when spring comes. At the first sign of sunshine, I wonder how I lived without it all those dark months of winter. Just something I was thinking about this morning.
On another note, my sister's trial ended up not being a trial. They settled for now, and although it's not a perfect solution, we are just trusting God will keep the promises we as a family have recieved and that she herself has recieved. I have peace about it. I know God will protect my niece and nephew.
Tommorow is my second baby shower. Hopefully after this we can get the baby's room whipped into shape. We still haven't painted it, but I think having all the stuff will be a good motivator for my husband!!! I can't believe Thanksgiving is next week. Talk about the holidays sneaking up on you. We are doing Thanksgiving at my sister's house. This year my brother Kevin will be there which is nice because I only see him like twice a year. I am sad Britany won't be there, but she usually isn't anyways because she would go to her dad's or to friend's houses. I haven't seen her in a year, and really talked to her in almost two years. It really hurts. I guess it's just another one of those things to trust God on:) Well I hope anyone who reads this has a blessed weekend......

Lazy Day, and Random Things

Edit: If anyone happens to read this on Monday the 13th by or at 9AM, please pray for my family, it is my sister's trial and it's very important. Thank you!!!


Well today I just decided to be lazy. I have done really absolutely nothing. I was going to do my hair and makeup, but I figured, what was the point, I am not going anywhere!!! Today is my day off so I guess I have the right to be lazy right?? I am usually using my days off to clean, or do some kind of errands, or go to docs appointments. So I just decided today was going to be a rest day. And I know I need to do it while I can because pretty soon my life won't just be about me anymore!!! LOL!!! Anyways so I have done nothing.
I have a slight crib issue. My inlaws called me and told me they were going to get us our crib. The problem is though, they went to get my crib I wanted off of the registry, which also comes with the dresser and changing table, and the company wanted to charge them a ridiculous ammount of money for shipping. So they want me to pick out a different crib. I have no problem with that, but then I am still left with the dresser and the changing table, which are pretty much going to be pretty expensive for both. I want new, so that complicates things. I know I could get some used stuff in really good condition, but since this is my first baby, I really want to get new. My bassinet isn't new though. But it's like a classic one, so I couldn't resist it. And I have a ton of clothing and other cool things that are used that people gave me. But for the big stuff, I really want something I can have for all my children, and have it be something only my family has used. I don't know what I will get yet, or how I will work it out, but I know God will help us have all we need. I am the type that doesn't need a fancy smancy set so I think I can get what I need relatively cheap.....we will see!!!
I hate that Christmas stuff is already out. It's so ridiculous that we are getting targeted earlier and earlier every year. Before you know we will have to endure Christmas ads in May!!! I mean come on, the evil holiday wasn't even done with yet and they were spewing out Christmas ads. And to top that off, they completely skip over Thanksgiving, which is a holiday about giving thanks for what you have, instead of a holiday(Christmas), they've turned into how much can I get for myself.....ugghhhh.....I hate it. And of course there is no room for Jesus in the "Holiday," campaigns....cuz you know, the "holidays," it's not "Christmas," anymore, just don't have room for him. I have just determined that Tim and I are going to not try to outdo ourselves this year. Everything is going to be kept to a minimal. After all, I don't think Jesus would be too sad if we didn't go out of our way to spend over our means!!!! Well I guess I am done ranting.....that's the most I've done today!!!

Clutter Part 2

Well my clutter is getting under control finally!!! Tim and I spent quite a few hours in the baby's room Saturday. We got rid of a lot junk out of that room!!!! Also we packed away some old mementos and a huge carton of my books....I still have books stored in two different friend's attics.....I must have like 500 I think!!!! There is still a ton to do, but I feel so much better getting SOMETHING done. Tim got sick of looking at the ugly sunflower border, and tore it down while we were working....YEA!!!!! Believe me, it was nasty.
I am feeling overwhelmed because we have the paint, and cabinet handles to do our kitchen, and we have no time. We have the paint to do our dressers.....no time......and we of course first and foremost importantly, we have to paint the baby's room. Other people would have had that done a looonnnnnngggg time ago. I just can't believe how much of our lives are taken up with work and obligations. Sometimes it can seem so overwhelming. I just feel like I can't get anything done...I mean I have the stuff....just no time....to do it!!! Oh well....
On other news, my sister's court date is on Monday, the 13th.....if anyone reads this please keep it in prayer, we are believing for a victory!!! Also still keep my niece Brittany in prayer as she is set on marrying this punk who turned her away from God. UGGGHHHH!!!
Well I am off to clean, what else is new......Have a blessed day!!!

Nothing New Under the Sun

Well not much here. Just bored. I am having my little moment of time while Kiersten and Aidan are coloring. The other kids will be home shortly. I spent the better part of the morning cleaning the upstairs in my sister's house because the kids totally trashed it last night. I don't mind helping my sister out, I know she doesn't have a lot of time to do that kind of stuff. I will probably babysit tommorow, making this a three-day week. Which doesn't sound like a lot, but it is when you're pregnant. I am sure next time I am pregnant and it is my own children, I will be more accustomed to it, but for now, I like my days off!!! LOL!!! I gotta enjoy them while I can right?? I am a little freaked out about this whole baby-supposed-to-be-moving-ten-times-an-hour thing. They told me that's how much the baby should be moving every hour, and I definitely don't think that happens. The baby moves a lot, but I don't know if it's ten times. I try to count, but I don't think I am doing it right!!! Oh well. I am trusting God for a happy, healthy baby.
I had lunch with a good friend yesterday and had some good conversation. She very much amazes me with her uplifting courage. I know it is through God's grace, but she still has to make the choice to be positive in a situation that's heartbreaking, and to me that's very courageous.....I love my friends!!! God bless all!!!!